Sign on the X

I told her I'd think about it even though I had already thought about it and reached a quick 99.9% accurate conclusion. She caught me off guard though and my best moments don't show themselves when I'm caught off guard, nor do my most honest ones. Maybe it was a way of saying, "I'm gonna keep you hanging for as long as I can" but I think I generally have a tendency to lead people on, especially over here. Between a language barrier and cultural differences, I get lazy. Let people assume what they want, say "yeah, sure" if it means I don't have to try to explain something again............
The "boss lady" asked me if I wanted to renew my contract, and the "boss lady" doesn't generally talk to me, but I don't generally talk to her so that's that. I wanted to ask, "Are you crazy?" and follow that by a list of reasons I would not be renewing my contract with Wonderland Junior English Academy but I left her with an I'll think about it. I have thought about it, in all honesty, but realized I just don't have it in me. Truth be told, I didn't always think I had it in me to complete one year which is why I thought about it. These past 9 months have been unbelievable and invaluable, changing me and blessing me in ways I couldn't have imagined. And I still have 3 months to go! I wouldn't be completely closed off to the possibility of another year in Korea, sometime down the time line, but I know it wouldn't be with Wonderland. They were maybe the right school for me this time, as I am still alive and kickin' but, I couldn't keep up with this pace nor could I be taken advantage of again in some of the ways I have. I don't think any of this is going to come out when I give them my verdict; I'll say no, thanks anyway and be on my way because I figure what's the point? They are who they are and will surely continue to be. So I'll take what I can, be thankful for what I can, and be really excited to come home soon with everything I can carry.