A week in Korea; no Internet and thus, this incredibly delayed blog. I have never been more out of my element than I am now. Fear is an emotion I am pretty familiar with, but I don't recall experiencing it at this magnitude before. Suddenly I am second guessing everything, mostly about myself-my knowledge, my choices, my characteristics, my abilities. Having never been on my on before I sure went all out to do it. I will admit to a meltdown; well, more like three of them. Frustration is the other feeling which I have to stand against; when things aren't going my way, and I just want to throw the towel in. There are deffinitly going to be stuggles, but I think there may be some very rewarding things as well. I am already having to rely on the Lord more than I have ever been forced to; and to be perfectly honest, my relationship with God has been faultering, mostly out of laziness. I am going to have to trust Him working inside me and through me, and actually take charge of things, take initiative. I have already learned much about myself, so there must be tons I don't know...
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